The great leap forward

For the whole of last month, I was busy splitting up myself into two parts: alternating between 1) taking care of my bf, walking around with him everyday and cheering him up after a suffering period of recovery and boredom; 2) playing the good role of being a student.

After 3 weeks, my bf was feeling better and was able to move around. He accompanied me to school everyday. Things were slowly moving back to normal and just as I thought I could concentrate on my studies, something happened again.

Troubles invite itself again.

There's a saying that says: don't ever dodge trouble, especially those that came knocking on your door.

It has been settled. Though there's alot of negative feelings involved, I'm glad about everything that has happened. We understand each other even deeper and are closer ever. =)

Has the picture painted too prefectly?

Our 31st anniversary.

no one will understand how much we've gone through.


I am confused. Am i expecting and demanding too much?

thoughts

Your comfort makes me feel uncomfortable and uneasy- it's as if a sign of thunderstorm coming.

The calmness before a thunderstorm is the scariest period. Not the thunderstorm itself.

A better me

I can't believe that I have been slacking at home for the past one and a half month, that's like half of my holidays and I am going to continue slacking for the next one and a half month. Do something, go work...etc, people have been telling me that. But it just doesnt make any economic sense to enter the workforce now judging on the low hourly wage of $5-$5.50. I certainly don't think my one hour worth just $5.50, (after teaching tuition). So I shall continue to slack and based my expenses on tuitioning. haha

I have always been complaining about the boredom and slacking away my life for the past one and a half month. But, thinking back, I realised that it's not a bad thing afterall. I have been busy catching up with my darling friends, which we have totally no time meeting up just for a coffee when cirriculum starts and projects start to knock in, hanging around, bitching about anything and everything under the sun. These are enjoyable moments that can't be exchanged with $5.50. Not only that, gaining knowledge by reading economist every morning (never has imagined myself doing that) gives me great satisifaction! (trying to emphasize the point that this cant be possible if I am selling myself for $5.50/hour) haha.

Philosophy: The grass on the other side is always greener, knowing how to be satisfied and be contented is more important.

I appear to have everything that people wish for. But why am I still feel empty inside?

People seems to take into account everything they have seen from the surface, does that fraction they've seen account for the whole picture?

"不开心的日子有谁能明白? 有谁能了解?"

i hate left

I hate left. I guess no one in this world would ever hate left as much as I do.

I've encountered countless of these experience on my left which attribute to my hatre of left. I used to think that it wasn't a big deal. I used to think I can live as if nothing happened and everything is normal. but no, times and times people have reminded me of it. Time and time that I've reminded myself about it, be it in a discussion or a conversation.

I dun want to be standing there, smiling foolishly, pretending that i've heard and understood the content anymore.

I hate left.

love u =)

O week!

that's rickson and aaron before inaug

day 0! qianfu's birthday!

day 0: in soci room resting after working so hard!

day 1: sitting in a circle

before going off for flag!

my econs kaki and cecilian! hahs

INAUGURATION DAY!

OG photo!

sentosa day! we're all councilors from taufeek!

flag day! got bullied by vannessa!

war games day!

early in the morning! my stomach jus cant go without food! haha

the sweet julia and gail, with my yummy cup noodles!

dear aunty huisin waving with the 'huat' stick

such a small world! lol